Life

This week has been full of emotions for me. My husband of just a little over a month was deployed to Korea, I had two job interviews and I was forced to be on my own in a different country. He warned me ahead of time that it would be difficult with him getting deployed and that it would require a lot of trust, love, patience and faith in one another. His words could not have warned me more.

Although he pre-warned me, it is still no where near enough preparation. I'm not really worried about his safety but I just really miss him. After all of these months of him being here in Okinawa and me in Michigan, we were finally together and loving every minute of it. Now I'm faced with pretty much the same thing as before except I'm away from everything that I cared about and loved (not counting my daughters).

At this moment, I'm not working nor do I have any friends (his friends don't count) and I feel somewhat isolated because we live off base. I welcome any job opportunity or anyone calling me. The time difference makes it a bit difficult some days to talk with my people back in the states. Doug has only been gone since Tuesday afternoon and I have to say that I'm lonely already.

Wednesday and Thursday were really bad days for me. The realization that he was gone really set in. I cried off and on because I miss him so much. I'm crying now. But this is reality and he has a job to do. I've been trying to focus on other things like making sure the girls do what they are supposed to do and looking for a job. A few good things are that I'm having to rely on my own navigational skills to get around and I'm figuring a lot of things out on my own. If you know me half way well then you know that's my forte. I'm a survivor!

Doug will only be gone for another 1.5 weeks but that's still a long time....we are still newlyweds. I am very fortunate that he doesn't have to be gone for a long period of time. Never before had I really gone everywhere with my mate. We went everywhere together, like the commissary, the PX, the 100 yen store, even the doctor. I miss the companionship he gave me. Now I only have skype. Don't get me wrong I love that modern technology has provided a way that I can see my love and talk to him but it's not the same as him being here physically.

The girls however are taking it in stride and although they haven't admitted it, but I know they miss him too. Things just aren't the same with him absent. They worry too.

So today, Saturday, I'll probably just clean up the house and take the time to read or something. With me being bored I've cut my hair about 3 times and I think that I'll cut it some more. Hey why pay a stylist when I can keep trying myself. It's only hair and it'll grow back.

Today is the first day of the rest of my life and I will make the most of it!